I really mean overwhelmed.
There is very little business going on.
People are just not
beating showroom doors down to buy furniture.
Well, at least not here in Boca Raton, Florida.
And what decent work I have in front of me....
I just can't seem to 'get centered' and get it going.
You know... the tedious stuff,
the drawings, the estimates from workrooms, the phone calls, and the follow ups....etc, etc.
Boring and tedious this designing life can be.
I have also lost a close male friend of mine this past week.
He had struggles, and they were not money struggles,
relationship struggles, or health struggles.
He was 52 and I think he may have died of a broken heart.
He was misunderstood in more ways than I could begin to explain.
He loved poetry.
He would read it to me for hours, or until I begged him to stop...
or I just fell to sleep....but he would keep reading.
He loved it so.
And if you ever met him
you would never believe this guy was into poetry.
He put up very tall walls to keep people away
He always lowered the bridge for me.
Like I said, he was my friend.
I will miss him.
Who knows, someday he may be reading poetry to me again.
I am underwhelmed and overwhelmed
at the same time.
I have a bad habit of not dealing with 'events',
if you know what I mean.
I am so busy trying to keep up with all I have 'to do'
that I just stuff my feelings into some 'feelings closet'
so that I can just keep up with the 'beat of my drum.'
I am feeling irritable and discontent.
Not good.
I think I will make some brownies.
XXX's
